Sometimes I want to laugh at how bizarre the idea of “freedom” is to me. I chased freedom for so long, believing it was what I wanted, without truly understanding what it was I was looking for.
This week I’m playing along with the lovely Natalie Sisson, and I have a sneaky suspicion I’m going to uncover it, for real, during the blog challenge (aff).
…get clear on the top 2–3 things that you feel are holding you back from living your ideal lifestyle. ~ Natalie Sisson
Natalie has challenged us to keep these posts short (200–300 words), and although I know other participants will go all out and write super long posts (I want to as well), I’m going to try to play within the rules of the challenge…
Challenge #1 — Admitting I don’t really understand what Freedom means to me
I initially thought “freedom” meant having all the time in the world to do the things I wanted to do (travel more, sleep more when I was sick, not feel pressure to work at times set out by someone else's schedule).
But, having attained those things, I suspect they were the bread crumbs leading me to something else (something bigger, perhaps? or maybe somethings smaller — simpler!)
I don’t have the answer or solution today, but I am keeping my eyes and ears open to discussions during this challenge & I have a funny feeling I’ll get some glimpses of it, very soon.
Challenge #2 — My partner doesn’t have the same freedom dreams as me
When I shifted from my accounting business to a portable business in 2010 my partner truly was on board. He loved that I could pick up and go, when his work called him to other locations.
But as time went on, it was quite obvious that it was my dream, not his. He craved the stability of a regular Monday — Friday job. He needed to be outside, doing physical work, to feel fulfilled. And, so we moved back into the city, signed a 6 month rental lease (part of me died while signing that paper — I grieved, as much as I have when a family member dies) and he found a job he absolutely loves.
So, while I truly have the freedom and flexibility to work wherever I want, whenever I want, it’s almost always from the home that I’ve grown to love over the past 3 years.
And, for this challenge, I also don’t think I have a “solution”... Unless I simply need to reframe what freedom means to me?
This blog post is in response to Natalie’s 10 Day Freedom Plan Blog Challenge Day 1